Posted by brilokuloj on Nov 12, 2023
You may know I had quit game development for a substantial period of time, despite it being one of my main passions.
It’s hard for me to say what the final straw was, or even if it was a real event or just my depression, but I just grew disillusioned. It felt like a terrible chore with no payoff, and I resented the world of Gamers and Game Reviewers, despite previously being a part of that whole ecosystem.
Well, I’m medicated, and you know what that means!
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Posted by brilokuloj on Oct 31, 2023
My story Needleminder’s first anniversary as an independently published work is coming up very soon. I’ve had an idea for a while now about what I wanted the next update to be, but it’s certainly going to be an undertaking.
That’s why I’m finally trying to figure out how to get into HTML5 development! Not to give too many spoilers, but I would like to make something interactive and animated. But I haven’t really made any web art on that scale before.
That’s why I’m trying out PixiJS, a library for making animated website graphics. Allegedly, this is a good kit for making games, but time will tell if I can actually make anything with it or if the Java will Script me in the end.
With that news, check out my very first PixiJS creation:
https://brila.eggware.xyz/toys/hh/
Amazing, isn’t it? I should be making the next Elder Scrolls game
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Posted by brilokuloj on Jul 5, 2023
Sorry for the lack of updates lately. As you may have guessed, I have been MOVING OUT! It’s a pain in the ass and my whole body hurts!
In between lifting furniture, pushing pieces around, wrestling my cats as they try to eat the raw meat I accidentally forgot to put in the freezer because I put it in my Dreamworks Trolls-themed fabric tote instead of the cold bag because the cold bag was full, and - occasionally if my brain will allow me - drawing art for Art Fight, I’ve been playing with Obsidian, the note-taking app that has completely warped my brain.
Some quotes from me about it:
this is evil they should have ip banned me from the download site
i literally have to go back in time and not learn about this program
take this shit away from me
i have to stop. im done with this shit for today. i have to stop. im literally like shaking trying to get myself to do something anything else . oh my god. this is like giving my wiki autism brain stimulants
This is evil, dangerous stuff. God help me.
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Posted by brilokuloj on Jun 27, 2023
Disclaimer: this post was originally written for Tumblr on January 29, 2023. It is here for preservation, because although YouTube has tried to backpedal… honestly, not much has changed for the better.
Hi. I am, or was, a small-time YouTube Partner. I have been described as “somewhat popular”. That’s some context to say, I’m speaking about my life inside the system.
So YouTube’s revenue has been decreasing. I don’t think that’s a well-known fact; this is something they would want desperately to hide, right?
Seems like it can only get worse; it's in a corporate decomposition stage where the product is about as good as it gets but $ growth is expected for investors. So now it's cut and restrict the product to get people to pay and add more ads.
- Deleted Reddit user
So instead of taking a step back, analyzing their product or their future, or even (God forbid) admitting that YouTube doesn’t need to make more money, they are now shaking their Partners for our fucking pocket change.
Here are the relevant policy changes:
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Posted by brilokuloj on Jun 11, 2023
Neil Cicierega, also known by his band name Lemon Demon, is an internet sensation. In my opinion, he’s the internet sensation, because he and his friends basically shaped the internet as we know it today.
It’s hard to avoid his influence online, whether your feelings are positive or negative. That’s why when he released Mouth Dreams in 2020, it changed the trajectory of my life – for the worse or the better, I cannot say.
Mouth Dreams is the newest in his series of inexplicably Shrek-themed mashup albums, alongside Mouth Sounds, Mouth Silence, and Mouth Moods. You may remember Mouth Dreams as a funny novelty, or if you have a sense of chronological linearity not marred by trauma, you might even remember it as one of the few enjoyable things to come out of 2020. Unfortunately, I remember it solely as one of the largest and longest panic attacks I have ever had.
Today, I am here to take you on a tour of exactly what happened to me on the evening of September 30, 2020.
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Posted by brilokuloj on Apr 27, 2023
I am ashamed to say that, up until last year, I had never been inside of a library. For most of my childhood, this was because my family didn’t seem to trust libraries for whatever reason, choosing to take me to the obviously much more expensive Borders for brand-new books. Into adulthood, I grew more comfortable going to other used-goods locations such as thrift stores, but just couldn’t quite jump the hurdle into just going to the damn library.
It didn’t help that they were frequently depicted as negative and hostile spaces in the TV I grew up watching. What was up with that? Between librarians being stereotyped as scary and controlling, to exaggerated tales of overdue fees, I grew up with the impression that the library was a terrible place that you only went to if you literally couldn’t afford anything else. Like the food bank. (The food bank is also fine, I learned.)
I started writing this article thinking of it as a collection of things that you could find at your local library, but that felt so broad as to be meaningless – or patronizing. I’ve chosen to narrow it down to things I have found at my library, as someone who only knew the library as a place where you could get a dirty old book that you’d forget about and accidentally end up paying $50 for.
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